Motherhood helped me become an artist
When I started commercial photography, I had to take a decision of taking up fewer assignments because of one of my biggest personal aspirations, enjoying my son’s childhood.
At the beginning of my career as a photographer, I was taking up all kind of assignments like model portfolios, candid portraits, catalog shoots, magazine covers & editorials, and jewelry. Initially, I took up every assignment that came my way. Soon I realized that so many assignments meant that I was unable to spend enough time with my son who was a toddler then.
This inner conflict finally led to a decision of taking up just one or two assignments every month. I started to politely refuse most assignments and took up only those that gave me creative satisfaction.
I remember my mentor telling me to be selective about taking up assignments but I guess I was too naive then to understand what he meant. However, as I started taking selective projects of my interest, I soon realized that people started recognizing me as a Jewelry Photographer and an ad-filmmaker. Now when I look back, I realize that I could discover my genre only because I started questioning what my true areas of interest were.
My journey as an abstract Fine Art photographer also began in a similar way. The days when I was not shooting and was at home I wanted to still be able to do photography to keep myself creatively engaged. I started to see the world in the tiny random objects around me and began shooting them to create abstract images. Soon people from the art world noticed my artworks and gradually I started getting representation invites from galleries across the world.
However, my abstract artworks and my decision of taking up selective assignments led to a perception among people that I was miserably failing. I wasn’t even very active on Social Media then and didn’t post my work for many years. People around me struggled to relate to my abstract art. But people’s opinions never bothered me as I was doing what I wanted to do. I never wanted to neglect my personal aspirations to fulfill my professional goals. I wanted the best of both worlds. The idea of “Failing It Up” started taking shape during the time when I wondered why people judge others without knowing their choices.
While my son has now become a lot more independent, I recently took another decision of restricting my jewelry shoot assignments to assignments that I feel proud of being associated with because I have another baby to take care of – Failing It Up.